December 20th 2015, or 4th of Advent, is my 12th 2nd Birthday. It is almost 12 years now that I have made Jesus Christ (Hebrew: Yeshua Hamashiach) the Lord of my life.

I well remember the first day God touched my heart, while I was watching this LUTHER movie summer 2003. I have been stuck in depression for almost 12 years then. Thoughts of committing suicide were a regular thing for years.

Watching the movie let to reading the Bible. Reading the Bible let to wanting to know the author. Getting to know HIM let to a new life.

I consider it to be the first wonder of my new life that ALL suicidal thoughts were blown away the same instant, I gave my life to Jesus. Eventually I started to enjoy life again. I even started to LIKE myself again. About a year ago wonder number two occurred: I actually was able to LOVE myself again. –  Now I can embrace the beauty of God’s word, which says: „Love your neighbor as you love yourself.“ (Matthew 22:39)

Rather early in my walk with Jesus I discovered that another verse is very true: „My sheep hear my voice. I know them and they follow my call.“ (John 10:27)

The most joy comes in listening to God’s voice while serving others. Once in a while I meet people who even were in full-time ministry for years, but never experienced anything supernatural and hardly can say they have a relationship with Jesus. Often these people are desperate. But each time the Holy Spirit gives the key to the heart of the person and it is possible to show him/her the love of the Father and the Son. It is a beautiful site to see these people catching hope and joy again.

In order to be set free to serve others, I had to pay a price. I had to step down from a full-time job in the elevator industry to a part-time job about three and a half years ago, which allows me to not having to go into office every Friday. Not one moment ever since did I regret it. Even my none-believing manager says that I have lightened up significantly and became at ease with myself.

I can say from the bottom of my heart: I love my life! – IF you can’t, TRY JESUS!